I had a minor crush on you from the first day we met. I even asked Umair in first semester about you and was pretty disappointed when he told me you were taken, but then you being in relationship and Afnan being madly after you. I decided not to tell anyone about how I feel for you.
I remember swiping right on Bumble and matching with you the next instant. I was ecstatic. I couldn't believe it. But then you decided to back out and I always wondered why.
Then in second semester I had that Velo moment, was it the velo? Idk but mannn I saw you and you looked so pretty I swear I could see Saram was kinda stoked too bro immediately asked "issi ki sath match howa tha na" AND DAMN GIRL I NEVER COULD HAVE IMAGINED IN THAT MOMENT KAY FEW MONTHS LATER ON WE WOULD BE SPENDING EVERY FUCKING DAY TOGETHER.
AND I LITERALLY USED TO STALK YOU 😠I swear. LIKE LITERALLY I USED TO STALK YOU AND LOOK AT UR "MATERIAL GWORLS" highlight. But then you uploaded those stories IVS walon kay sath and after that I kinda backed off ngl cuz I thought maybe you were pretty much like baqi IVS members.
But I finally decided my luck on you after I saw your text for HRS in IVS group and decided to text you. I remember being all nervous when you called me for interview and I used all my social muscles to keep a normal conversation and hoping I don't creep you out. Talked to you bahanay bahanay sae memes kay chakkar sae.
And when you asked me for a coffee I swear I felt like damn I'm smooth 😠I EVEN SENT THAT TEXT SS TO AFNAN TO RUB IT IN HIS FACE. But then you were kinda late and I didn't want to seem to vaila and decided to go home. I remember unlocking my helmet when I said let's check one last time and IN THAT VERY MOMENT YOU TEXTED AND I CAME BACK FROM PARKING RIGHT AWAY EVEN WHEN YOU SAID WE COULD HAVE DONE IT SOME ANOTHER TIME.
I knew this was it quickly got into the lift. I remember being awkward asf and shy while you were ordering. I was literally forcing the voice to come out to speak as I was literally not even able to do that ðŸ˜. But you started talking, gave me a topic to yap on and then I slowly got into my comfort zone.
I am so sorry for all that Amal texts it's just at that time starting a new relationship seemed a little too scary as compared to just jumping back to the old one and I am so sorry for that Fatima. After breakup I had to pick myself up I had a 2.5 GPA, my relations with my mama and Hamdan were TENSE, I was literally a loner in uni and in general shit was just not going my way and I had to pick myself up alone, I feared going down that path again.
But then I decided to get past her and decided to start a new beginning with the amazing person I had obsessed over and met right at the perfect moment. Texted Meerab and Rayyan about you that I have met someone who brings joy to my life so effortlessly and I'm getting v close to her and I hope things go good this time.
I remember the day we took Umair's interview, you came in with a burnt hand and showed it to me and I held it us bahanay sae and it felt so good holding your soft delicate hand as you showed me how you got them burnt and then you gave me your ring which I still love wearing.
And then when I was sitting at that third terrace with you sitting beside you copying me. I realised how much I liked you at that very moment, for just staying there till 8 for you baarish kay bahanay sae, getting bullied but still somehow enjoying it. Tbh I didn't give a shit about the rain honestly I love riding bike in the rain it's literally one of the best feelings ever but I stayed late cuz I wanted to spend time with you.
I wanted to confess that day and I was literally counting all the possibilities that could have happened and I decided to give it a go but I couldn't. I wanted to speak but it was like my voice wasn't coming out and I was left voiceless. And I just decided not to as it might be awkward and just said goodbye.
I literally befriended Shafqat again because of you, waited for you and then ordered Thai beef noodles as soon as you told me to and didn't even taste it till you came and after that I ate it through your jhoota fork, I felt so good being invited to the movie with you even tho I'm sorry I was sleeping but the fact that I was your first priority to hang out with was the best feeling ever.
Then I finally decided to have the courage to confess my feelings and to be very honest I had very low expectations of that working out. Like literally but I just had to get that out, it was eating me holding it inside of me everyday hoping I might be able express my feelings. I just decided to give it a go.
For a moment I was anxious when you asked me if I was being serious or was this a joke but then you started bullying me and said "I do like the dynamic between us" and I was dancing in my room as I read that text knowing that I had somehow pulled you.
Literally that night and the next day still feels like a beautiful dream. It's amazing how our fates have brought us together. For so long we were moving parallel and suddenly we intercepted each other's path and I just love that how we clicked in a moment. Within two days I had you added in my Batman account.
It's like we are made for each other and I hope we stay together forever. I love you so much 💗.
